Jealous Love

Jealousy.
You can Kill Me.
You infest my insides
Overpowering, you can blind me.
Blinded with a sick feeling
You eat at me
leaving me to rot with your soul stealing
Positive energy loses its battle
Negative beliefs seep behind the shadows.
I want to win this battle.
Get these demons out the shadows.
Because you're the death of me
Don't you have others to feed on besides me?
I wish I didn't feel you
Why do I always fall for the women that feed you?
You hunger for my negativity
My negativity obeys you
Then what is the lesson I can learn here?
Should I ignore my emotions and steer clear?
I've listened to my brain
Since I believe you can't just make heart decisions
or you'll end up bleeding emotionally in pain
The brain can keep me safe
But without the heart
Life breathing emotions will suffer a cold fate
She makes me feel good.
She makes me happy.
Can I just stop the Jealous feeling?
So it won't control me into negative feelings?
When I love, I Love.
But When I Love.
I'm Alone.
Because it usually never works out for me.
The ones I really want you see.
But I'll continue to have hope.
That maybe one day, she'll notice me.