Gone Has Past.

Nervousness, Empty, Dark, Alone.
Travelling far
Driving in my Car
Darkened blue sky, windows down, and the melody plays.
Engine revs,  the wind swims through my hand, out the window it hangs
The sun floats down, the night introduces itself, so the ball turns orange
A hit of the e-cig reflecting on Alone.
Far far away from home.
Melancholy happiness because I'm just better off like this.
A better man, A dwelling man, A sadder man, A wiser man.
Years pass me by
Pain of various situations of the past blinking blurry images
I blink, then I squint shut my eyes
Non-existent memories draw out nostalgic emotional sensations
Heart aching missing.
Missing so much.
Oh what I'd give to live it all now.
Young, alive, and Free. Dwelling. Dwelling.
Violins from an old song play, numb facial expressively shedding tears
Age 27 going on 28 and have lived through so much
Each era and generation bringing a different type of happiness
Shut eyed and opened and life has become numb.
Slowly and slowly, its draining out.
The more we get older, the soul feels less
Can I go back? All who were once there, come back..can we relive it all again?
But I look around and they are no longer here.
The others never valued like I valued.
Others never loved like I loved.
Others forgot, but I never did.
So I keep making plans, keep finding ways to create new adventures.
I will always remember and value the Good Days.