Keep It Real, Or Should I?

Don't lie and boast about friendly oaths and future trials
Don't boast and smile and keep a friend believing false promises and lies
Don't beat around the bush and pretend you haven't been distant, but we all know its lies
Am I crazy?  Now am I overthinking?  Your words don't match with your actions
Now because I like what you've sold me, I have many excuses to keep you justified.
But in my heart.
In my mind.
With the experiences I've gain, we all know the unloyal truth. You are a lie.
Its hard to say this about you without evidence.
Even though you're probably going through some shit, but you never mention it.
How come I ain't the first one met in contact to comfort with?
Yet your excuses seem to to keep your image humble
Without a doubt you don't wanna be perceived as a mean girl.
You're shady.  You're made up.  You promised things that you didn't keep.
Geez, now that I look back. I'm just as shady as the person we speak.
I'm speaking about someone who has the same flaws as me hidden secretly beneath her feet.
If you are anything like me, you're just as greedy and selfish as me.
N if I hate these things about you passionately
Would that mean I passionately hate myself completely?
Your blinding capabilities wreck my soul with self-limiting doubtful beliefs
You make me sick and unhealthy, but I got this soft side for you.
Why do I continue to chase a soul that never meets?
Well Fuck You. This time I'm listening to myself and I'm not going to want you.
Feed you, Give in to you,
There's a mystery to you. And its not a mystery that I am interested in.
I don't want it anymore.
Why am I being nice to you through text when I secretly despise you?
Now I know how it feels to be promised something.
A promise that you couldn't keep.
Fuck You.