Poetic Reflections

Why do I continue to put these things in my body?
How come I can't seem to find other hobbies?
Weekend was better than the rest
Stayed away from drugs which was best.
I don't like feeling slow.
Drugs make me feel stupid, lonely, and depressed.
Weekends are getting shorter.
Starting to miss home a lot, wish I lived a lil bit closer.
Chicago culture is a beautiful thing
The people are energetic and style is part of many different scenes
Diverse cultures, Diverse races, and Diverse knowledge
I wish I could wake up tomorrow at my moms and cook sausage and eggs
I'm feeling real close to being ready to leave here
Its a nice town with some nice things
But I'm in my youth, there's more I need to see
Every day I'm alone there's many more lessons learned
People ain't always going to be there
We're at age where most of us need to focus on our own concerns
There was a girl I really liked
She seemed to be one the only few who understands
Its too bad her concerns are drifting her away from me
Now she's moving to Las Vegas so she can be with her ex man
I've never felt so connected to someone before
I felt kind of sad when I heard
But hey, Life goes on so we just have to press forward
Chasing women doesn't seem as appetizing anymore
Getting fucked up doesn't feel exciting as it was
Travel, good food, and a few close friends seems to be enough
One day I'll have someone
Just as Nuky and Juan have this bond that is awesome
Once we figure out to love ourselves
That can't be it
Sharing our love to someone else gives life a more meaningful purpose
Hope Sia gets better
She's someone I truly care about and I don't want things for us to get bitter
The drive has gotten easier
I'm learning to accept the distance
Playing old songs bring nostalgia
Reflecting on the past
Even through all the negativity and sadness
My life has been full of adventures and euphoria
I don't have any regrets.
I look forward to achieving what I can
My next goal is to leave this country
That is my plan.
Maybe I will meet true love in Paris, France.