Strive.

Lonely nights I spend alone.
Wishing most times I could sleep at home.
Waking up to my father singing.
Waking up to my mother cleaning.
The sound of my mother blow drying her hair.
Damn I wish I was back there.
The small things I've grown to appreciate
The smaller things I stressed before
Seem to not bother me anymore.
Many women I chase.
New friends I seek for to calm this boredom
Lessen my soul being eaten like steak.
Back to work, tomorrow is Monday.
I'm not looking forward to ending this Sunday.
It was such a good 2 days.
Only 2 days out of the week to let loose and escape.
The bigger dreams, the bigger investments.
The higher the risk, the more I feel ambition.
Lets make 2014 work, lets make all my dreams reach with all these efforts.
I'm not here to just do zombie work.
I'm here for the bigger dreams.
And in the meantime on these weekdays its my living I've given to sacrifice.
It gets lonely.
And lately I been feeling I need someone to sleep here with me.
A woman I make up in my mind that shares the same goals as me.
Someone who shares the same humor and laughter as me.
A partner in crime.
An adventurous friend I can depend and call mine.
Love sick a bit?
Maybe so. I'm tired. I don't wanna keep chasin and screwin hoes.
Wait I take that back.
There are days where I just want only that.
Maybe its the sunday blues I get because the weekend is ending.
The fun is over.
I'm back at my apartment.
The sun is gone and the city grows colder.
This city sleeps early.
The things I miss about Chicago.  People never sleep so early.
Lets hope tomorrow brings improvement.
Lets hope this year brings a new enjoyment.
I don't want to be stuck here.
I continue to hold on to hope.
That this year will be more than I can ever imagine.
With hard work and passion.
I will do my best and never reach saturation.
Good night World.