I haven't seen monica in days now. I didn't realize how much i really loved her since we've had this space. I love her more than I really imagined. I miss her so much. My days feel different when she's not around. I say i don't feel emotions much, but I am really starting to feel so much more appreciative of her and that she is the closest thing I've ever come across to being the woman i want to marry. The idea of marriage scares me to death, but the more time I have been away from her, the more I see now how wonderful she is. I really miss her. Just a couple of more days.